as you fade away

I'm listening to Hometown Hero's "Eighteen" pretty good song. I don't know what I'm gonna do today, probably study. I have 2 midterms next week. My bioethics one is on Thursday and my art one is one Friday. Least I know that weekend will be a good one, pluse it's Valentine's day on Friday so that'll be cool. I had my cognitive psyc midterm on Thursday, I think I did pretty good on it. Only took me 35 minutes and then I was outta there. It was basically memorization. On Thursday we had another fire alarm go off, but this time someone decided to pull the thing at 3:30 in the morning. So we all had to be evacuated in the ice cold morning air. Everyone was pissed. 3 fire alarms, 3 days in a row. It can be pretty annoying. Luckily nothing happened last night. I got back to my room at 1:30 and Diana was already asleep. Me and Mike hung out last night at his place and watched Austin Power's the spy who shagged me. I have to say that I never realized what a dumb movie it is. We were pretty much alone in his apartment for a bit until his roomate came in with like 4 people. They just stood in the room with us and started watching the movie too and then they finally left. So then me and Mike were alone again till the movie was over with. We started kissing and stuff with him on top of me and his roomate walked in. LOL. I think it's sooooooo funny. Cause Mike looked up and his roomate was all "oh sorry.... sorry.. sorry...." and then walked back out. LOL. He acts like it's a bad thing. Mike was like "you'd think he would get the point." He walked in on twice!! haha. Mike wanted to take things farther last night, him and his wandering hands. But I didn't feel like going any farther and he was all "maybe for Valentine's day?" and I told him maybe. Then he started kissing my stomach and asked if I was going to get my belly button pierced still and I said yeah. Then he asked if I was going to get my tattoo and get my belly button pierced all in the same day and I told him no. Then the funniest thing. Okay I am like super ticklish. I have never realized it before, but I am super ticklish with Mike. It's just cause he goes all slow with his hands like on my stomach and my back. It just makes me laugh. He started sliding his hands up my shirt and the way he was doing it, with his palm going all slow on my stomach, killed me. It was funny cause he was trying to do it so his palm wouldn't touch and he was trying to get all good at it. Then he was like "come on babe" cause I would try to make him stop cause it was just too ticklish. Then he was being dumb and trying to really tickle my stomach. I told him I would push him off the bed, so he stopped. So then we just layed there again and kissed. It's fun when his roomate isn't in the room. I showed Mike my broken star ring and how I need to superglue it. It's my favorite ring, like the only one I wear. He was all "we'll have to get you a new one." awwwww. Well I just got this feeling like Nancy, Griselda, and Wintila are gonna come over for a surprise visit. I'm not even dressed so I think I should go and do that. Last night I had the funniest conversation with Wintila online. She asked when she was going to get to see my drunk and I told her she can get me trashed for my bday. Oh man. Then she was all "ooooh I so am." Then she told me how she already asked a friend for bottles of Barcardi and how I better not leave her hanging. Then she went on to tell me she would take good care of me, which I know she would. Then she said I could invite Mike over too. LOL. I told Mike and he got all excited saying I coud take advantage of him. But then later on he was all "I wouldn't let you drink too much. I wouldn't want you throwing up.... I would never let that happen to you." Awwww so sweet lol. Everyone likes watching out for Nicole. That's great. Well now it's time to start my day :)

Okay so I'm sitting here studying for my cognitive psyc midterm that I have tomorrow and what do I decide to do? Write in my journal of course. Diana went to this meeting tonight around 6ish anad here it is 9:30 and she still isn't back yet. My dad was eh, alright. I only had my Pacific Is. Body Art class till 12:10. I realized I had to return 2 library books by today so I walked straight there after class. Then I came back to Porter to the ringing of yet another fire alarm and firefighters. This time it was for real though. There was a room on the fourth floor that was on fire. It was really bad, you could see the flames engulf the entire room and come out the window. I guess the start of the blaze was candles, which they tell us specifically not to have in our rooms. So I hung out with Diana and Jupeter till about 3 when they finally let us back into our building. It was pretty frustrating. Then I grabbed a change of clothes so I could go to the gym and threw them in my backpack. Diana grabbed her books for her Education class; she had a midterm today at 3:30. I went over to Aprils to see if her and Alissa wanted to go with me to the gym but April said she was unmotivated today and didn't feel like going. So I went by myself. That was fun. I worked out more on my legs and arms. It felt really nice to work out today and then come back, take a shower, and just study. Haha I'm such a nerd.

I'm being overconfident in myself about this midterm tomorrow and I know I shouldn't be. I've been paying attention in class, I've been studying all there is to know for the test, so why shouldn't I get a good grade? Well... we'll see. Different teachers give different tests. Hopefully this one isn't so bad. Gosh I'm so glad tomorrow is Thursday. I want the weekend to come so I can just relax and do nothing. Tuesday we have no classes, it's called Advising Day. If you want you can get advising for our specific major and ask questions. Next weekend will be nice too cause I think we have a 4 day weekend, maybe it's 3.. but still. Awesome! Anyways... I'm getting bored writing in this so I think I'll stop :)

Just finished doing my annotated bibliography for my Pacific Is. Body Art class. So I'm all done with my homework for tonight, that is unless I study for my midterm for my cognitive psyc class which I'm probably going to do. Right now me and Diana are listening to Slipknot's "Surfacing" and just hanging out. I wonder if Mike is going to come over tonight. Don't know. Anyways..... I had a kinda busy day today. Woke up at 7. Had my cognitive psyc section at 8 which is way across campus at Cowell college. We just reviewed for the midterm so at least it was helpful. That lasted until 9:15... we got out 5 minutes later. So I walked all fast to the bus stop and went to meet Nancy and Griselda for breakfast. Then I had my psyc class from 10-11:45. But not really... because my instructors lecture got done earlier which was cool. Then I came back and went to lunch. After that I came back to my room and studied for my psyc midterm. I did that until the fire alarm went off around 2. So I left to get out of my room because the ringing bell was hurting my ears. I went downstairs and I called to just talk to my mom until the ringing stopped. Then I went back up to my room and studied more until l had to leave for Bioethics. Had Bioethics from 4-5:45. We had a guest speaker from a medical institute that talked to us about the human genome. It was pretty interesting. Then I went to the express store and tried to find some Gatoraid for Diana because she's been sick lately and she needs to drink something with electrolytes in it. Although pedilyte is the best they don't have any on campus let alone gatoraid. Hope she gets better. I'm kinda sore. Last night I went to the gym with April, Alissa, and Rusty. We played some tennis first on the courts and then we went and worked out. I had a lot of fun. I'm working out my legs more.. not like I need it considering walking up and down my 5 flights of stairs. But I'm working out my arms and stomach now too. Gonna get all buff. I'm going to start taking a kick boxing class next quarter, it should be really awesome I can't wait. So I told Nancy what classes I want to take next quarter and she got upset with me. I told her I want to take a writing class, developmental psych and personality psych. She told me to chill out on the psych classes but helllllooooo psych's my major. Then she told me I HAVE to take precalculus because it's required for psyc majors, which I already knew... I was just trying to put it off taking it until next quarter. But I should take it to get it out of the way. Eh. Yay!! My bday is coming up!! in 18 days!! Gonna finally be 19. How sad though cause this will be the first birthday I won't be with my friends from HS, like Aine, Amanda, Jodi, Candy, and Raci. I miss them. But I'm happy that I have my close friends here to spend that day with along with my family. It'll be cool. Anyways... I'm bored now. So I'm going to stop writing now.

Well it's 8:14. The week has officially started. I usually don't wake up this early, my alarm is set for 8:30 but then Diana's alarm went off at 8 and so I figured I would just get up. I thought I would beat the cleaning lady to the bathroom but I guess not. They're still cleaning it. Which leaves me here on my bed in my pj's... having to go the bathroom. Brrrrr... it's cold today in our room. It's probably going to be freezing outside. I only have 2 classes on Monday's: my Pacific Is. Body Art section from 9:30-10:40 and then the actual Pacific Is. Body Art class from 11-12:10. After that I think I'm going to come back to my place and get some lunch at the dining hall. Probably check my email and then walk across campus to the library. I'm going to do some researching for my art class and then read. I could do that hear in my own room but being in the library is much better. It MAKES you work. Anyways.... so last night my mom called. It was pretty funny. She was all "so what is this thing I see on your credit card bill for Claire's??" and I tarted laughing.. I was all "oh yeah me and Nancy and all of them went and got our ears pierced on that day I went to get my glasses" and she was like "so you have 3 on one side now??" and I said "yeaaah". Then I started laughing more and she was all "and where am I supposed to get money to pay for this hmmm??" and I said "from my allowance" haha and then she said "cool". She wasn't even mad/upset!! nothing! She was so cool about it. She said my brother was shaking his head in the background. Then he called back later on last night and was all "so you got your ear pierced again? Have you told dad yet??" and I said no and he was like "dad's going to flip out" hahaha. Nah. He's not. And if he does he'll get over it in like 2 mins. That's just the way my family is. Brrrrr... I'm so cold!!! I miss Mike. Oh man I had the weirdest dream last night, it was kinda sad too. It was like I was back at my house and I was hanging out with my mom in the kitchen cooking and stuff... and she saw this ring on my finger that Mike gave to me... at the same time she was talking to my dad trying to be all secretive saying "yeah... I guess she really likes him... we better watch out cause now she's wearing a ring on her finger..."It was crazy. I have no idea what that dream meant. Well anyways... I'm gonna go see if the cleaning lady is done now so I can get ready to start my day. It's time for me to be smart again. Woooo hoooo.

Mmmmmmmmmm..... I love Mike. I LOVE being with him. The best feeling ever just kissing him. He said I'm like a drug cause now he's addicted to me. He told me he was going to come and visit me at like 4 today cause we both had homework to do. Diana had left to go to the science library to study with Hanna. So I was sitting on my bed online... doing some homework, with my door propped open and guess who walks up. Mike. haha. It was like almost 3. He said he couldn't wait that long to see me. So we just hung out... listened to music as I kept researching for my psyc class. Then he just layed on my bed and I sat there telling him stories about yesterday. We ate some new candy my mom sent me, some red fire gummy ants. Those were yummy. Then we watched the sunset together and looked at the beach.... I stood up to put the radio on and he wrapped his arms around me. Then he got in front of me and pushed me on the bed. I think it's so funny when he does that, it's so cute. So we fell on my bed and mmmmmm.......just could not stop kissing him. We would see how long we would go... like through 2 songs and stuff... haha. Then he told me he loved me again... awww. Then we would talk but we both knew we didn't want to talk, we just wanted to kiss each other. So we started kissing again... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....... that's just all there is to say about the rest. Then Diana came and walked in on us. HAHA. She opened the door and Mike was all on top of me. I pushed him off so fast. Diana was all "can I turn on the lights??" haha. But oh my gosh. I am so in love with Mike. I love everything about him. He told me he wishes he could see my face everyday when he wakes up and how he never wants to leave me. I love it. He's my cutie :)

Man I miss him. I already want to be with him again. Anyways..... yesterday I did no homework which is what I'm doing today. Instead I went to the mall with my friend Griselda. Us girls LOVE to shop. We went to Styles where we tried on all sorts of things and where she eventually bought a pair of pants. Then we went across the way to Victoria's Secret. I had been wanting to go there for the longest time. We spent like an hour and half in there. It's just so pretty in there and it smells so nice :) We bought some pretty panties. We were having aa tough time looking for our size, it's like the whole world is a medium now. After spending money there we went to Abercrombie and Fitch and looked at some tee shirts but bought nothing. Then we went to Macy's and tried on the COOLEST dresses ever. They looked like the were from the 50's. I tried on this black one that had this white flower on the bottom and it was all poofy. There was this big line to try on clothes in the fitting room and there was me and Griselda twirling in our dresses without a care in the world. ha ha. We had fun. Then we decided to go to Subway... all that shopping made us hungry. Then we came back home around 7ish. Once I got back to my room... Diana still wasn't home from going to her house on Friday. So I got online and talked to Nancy and Wintila. Then they asked if I had talked to April cause she wanted us to all hang out in her room and play games and watch movies. They said they weren't gonna go unless I was going so I called April. Then her and Alissa came and picked me up, then we went across campus to pick up Nancy, Griselda, and Wintila. Me and Nancy ran to the car to get the backseats and Wintila (being the smallest out of all of us) had to lay on our laps. It was funny cause once she layed down she was all " Griselda... don't try to open my legs!!" and we just started cracking up. April was all "ooh my gosh... I so do not know you". LOL. Then the windows in the back of the car were getting fogged up and April was all "what are you guys doing back there??" and she called Wintila a lesbian and we were all just laughing at her. Too funny. So we got to April's and Travis and Rusty were there. We played Balderdash... it was sooooooooo much fun. We were so hyper ad giggly. We played in teams: Me and Alissa, Nancy and April, Travis and Rusty, and Griselda and Wintila. Haha no one wanted Wintila on their team cause she was slow. Nancy and April ended up winning, me and Alissa started out in last place but caught up and ended in 2nd. Woooo hooo. Then we all got super hungry so April took out all these chips..... fudge..... reese's pieces... and all this candy. It was yummmmmyyy. After we pigged out we watched Sandlot. Fooorreeeevvveerrrr. haha. Then Tim and his friend came over to visit and see if we wanted to go to late night with them but then they saw our wrappers on the floor and said 'guess not'. After Sandlot we were all tired and April and Alissa offered to drive us back to our places. That was nice of them. Then I came back, it was like 11 and Diana was here. She was soooooo hyper off of this Chai drink from Starbucks. She wanted to make a new outfit fr Valentine's day so we were trying to come up with some cool ideas. She wanted to write on some of her old shirts or cut them... then she wanted to cut heer pants and use like safety pins on her shirt. haha. Then she put this one shirt over this shirit she was already wearing and started dancing around in front of the mirror. Then she was pretending to be sexy and told me to take a picture of her... so I did. haha. We're such dorks. She made me laugh so much that I got the hiccups and then she was laughing at me. I tried drinking water upside down but that just didn't work cause I was laughing too much. So then she told me to drink a Capri Sun all fast, so I did and it worked!! Then we finished watching Jimmy Neutron: Boy Genius. That ended at 1 and I had planned on going to bed early (techinally it was ya know.. 1 in the morning).... so I got into my pjs and stuff. Diana had to study so she left to go study with Hanna till 4:30. We both woke up at 11 to "Lose Yourself" that happened to be playing on Diana's alarm clock. Then we had some cereal in our room and now I'm here, sitting on my bed....in my pjs.... listening to jLo and LL cool J's song...... watching Diana geet some stuff together.... and it's now 12:51. Think I'm going to go take a shower and then definately sit down and do some much needed reading for all my classes.