as you fade away

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Why Nagging a Man Doesn't Work

What a woman says: "This place is a mess! C'mon, You and I need to clean up, Your stuff is lying on the floor and you'll have no clothes to wear, if we don't do laundry right now!"
What a man hears: blah, blah, blah, blah, C'MON
blah, blah, blah, blah, YOU AND I blah, blah, blah, blah, ON THE FLOOR blah, blah, blah, blah, NO CLOTHES
blah, blah, blah, blah, RIGHT NOW

Okay. I'm writing this because I've been feeling kinda scared about things with Mike. I've been feeling this way for the past couple of days like really strongly. I'm scared to death that I might accidentally find myself pregnant. Like we fool around almost every time we see each other and we don't use protection because okay we're not really having sex but then you know, things happen. It feels right when we're doing it but then towards the end it's like we shouldn't be doing this and things need to be slowed down a bit. But then it's like it's too late and that's when I get scared. Last night we were on his couchh and he started to try to fool around and I really didn't want him to so I took it into my own hands not to kiss him back and do stuff. Then when I walked home my stomach started to hurt a little and I just got more scared, not sure if it was hurting because he had been laying on top of me or what. I just need to really be open with him next time I see him. I called my mom like 10 minutes ago and we were talking and out of the blue she said "you better not be finding yourself getting into trouble when you're over at Mikes..." and I told I wasn't. She was all "does he try to start things?... I don't want to see things 9 months down the road.. I don't want a crib in your dorm room..." Netheir do I!! Augh. Being an adult is difficult.

Yay!!! Guess what!! I'm going to the Vans Warped Tour this summer @ Cal State Long Beach, July 11th!! I bought me and my brother Chris a ticket last night!!! And Mike is gonna buy a ticket too!! Yay!! We get to see... The Ataris, The Used, Pennywise, Glassjaw, AFI, Rancid, Less than Jake, and Sum 41 might be there!!! and all these other awesome bands are gonna be there too!! Soooo excited!! :)

Aww. So our anniversary was good afterall. We hung out at his place around 3 and did homework. He worked on math with his friend while I read for Sociology. Then I left to come back to my place after I had read, so I could hang out with Diana and get something to eat. Then around 8 Mike called to see what I was doing and if he could come over but I told him I wanted to go over there. So he met me halfway and we started walking and he asked where I wanted to walk to. I told him we should walk to the music center (that's where he took me on our first walk). So we got there and sat on some bench to stare at the stars. We probably stayed there for like 30 mins and I told him he wasn't going to get his present until we got back to his place because of the lighting. So we walked back and when we got to his place I started to put my stuff in his room and we walked into the living room to watch tv. Then I asked him if he wanted his present or not. Of course he said yes so I went back into the room and grabbed my purse. I sat him on the couch and made him stick out his hands and close his eyes. Then I put the present on his hands. Wind-up Sushi!! Lol! He loved it. So we sat there and played with these wind-up sushi's for like 15 minutes. Then we started watching tv. He still hadn't given me his present. He had asked me earlier in the day if I had a necklace of some sort and I told him well of course I have 'a' necklace of some sort. Then he asked if I had a gold or silver one and I told him silver. It was like he was hinting at something. So I waited patiently to see what it was. He went into his room to get something, something supposedly related to homework.. but it wasn't. So he sat back on the couch and we were holding hands.. and then I felt him like messing around with something while also holding my hand... and then he put this ring box in my hand. He told me earlier not to be scared when I saw his present but I was still scared for some reason. Then he was all "it's a promise ring..." So I opened it up and it was one of his rings.. gold.. and with this diamond on the top. When I saw that it was his ring my immediate reaction was "oh.. you can't give this to me.. it's yours... keep it.." He said he'd been thinking about it for awhile now and how he wanted me to have it. I still feel weird thinking about how I have "his" ring. But I do think it was really really sweet of him to do that. I couldn't stop staring at it last night (I even slept with it on). Everytime I look at it, I think "wow.. he loves me.. I'm really doing this.. we're really in this deep." I honestly can't believe I've been with him for this long. I love every second of it.