as you fade away

Okay. You can officially call me a slut. Lol. Well not really but ehhhh I just feel so dirty. I may look like an innocent girl but man and that I would never do anything crazy. But I've come to realize that in some aspects that's true. But when it comes to being with Mike and sex, all that goes out the window. It's like a rush. I do things I never thought I would do because I like the feeling of doing something wrong or getting caught. Last night I spent the night over at Mikes. We watched Orange County while laying in his bed. His roomate was there and his other roomate kept walking in and watching parts of the movie. It was getting late too, it was 12 and we had to wake up at 8 cause of class. Eventually his roomate went to bed and his other roomate left to her room. So it was just me and him watching the movie like we wanted it. We were all cuddly and I was really sleepy but I wanted to watch the movie. We were laying there and Mike kept playing with my hands and I could tell he wanted me to give him a hand job. Sounds so romantic huh? lol. So yeah. I got him off while we were watching the movie and it was sorta bad too cause I knew Mike wanted to do something but his roomate was sleeping just a couple of feet away. But I guess that didn't bother Mike all that much. After the movie finished it was about 1 and we just layed there for a bit and I started rubbing his chest. Then I went lower a little under his pants, like towards his hip and he let out this little moan and moved a little. Then I kept doing it and he kept moaning. Then he rolled over and was all "you found my spot.." and then he got on top of me and started kissing me. So then we really got into that. As we were kissing I had my hands in his pants and I got him off again. This time we were getting sort of loud and I could tell his roomate wasn't really asleep. At first I didn't like that idea but then when we really got it into I was like "yeah whatever..." So then we kept fooling around and it started to get intense, like he was trying not to make that much noise. I was trying to kiss him so he wouldn't wake up his roomate. I kept kissing his chest and then he started to move up more and more. I knew what he wanted to do and I had wanted him to try to do it. I guess you can say Mike is the only guy who I've ever given a blow job too. At first I didn't know if I liked it, seemed a little too overrated. But then it just made me want him more. So then we stopped and we started kissing again. This time trying not to make a lot of noise because we really didn't want to wake up his roomate. After all of that he leaned over and whispered "goodnight baby" and we slowly started to fall asleep. I had my arms around him and I was rubbing his arms, his chest, and his sides. He was trying not to moan again and grabbed me a little bit tighter and closer. Then he slid his hands up my shirt and started rubbing his hands and his arms all over my stomach like he wanted it again. He kept doing that and grabbed me more closer. He had his leg between my legs and kept rubbing it closer to me each time I would rub an area on his lower chest. But then it kinda stopped and we kissed and slowly fell asleep. The whole night I really couldn't sleep and I don't know why. I remember at times when I was asleep, he would panic that I wasn't there or something and he would hug me really hard. Or he wanted me to kiss him because he would wake up a little and slide his hands under my shirt and rub my stomach and my back. It was a fun night though I must say. Somethings I've never experienced before. Somethings I'd like to keep doing in the future with him. I just love his touch. Sends chills down my spine.

Eww I have like the biggest hickey on the right side of my neck. It must be a little bigger than the size of a quarter and it's so dark. Embarassing. Trying to cover it up with my hair. lol. But....Wow. I had the best night with Mike last night. MmMmMm. We hadn't really spent time together in a long time, like watched a movie and just cuddled because we've both been really busy with studyinng and homework. But that all changed last night. I went over to his place last night around 10:30ish. We watched Blue Crush cause he hadn't seen it yet. We were in his bed watching it on his computer and I sat in front of him between his legs. It was funny because I could tell he wanted it and I was just waiting for him to do something. He had his arms around me and rubbing his hands all over my stomach and started playing with my belly button ring. Then he kept working his hands up more and started to lift up my shirt. We were watching the movie though so I didn't want to get too into something so we just kept it at that till the movie was over. Then the movie ended at 1 and we layed there for a little bit, then he rolled over and got on top of me and started kissing me. That wasn't even really nothing, the usual makeout session. We kissed till 2. Then we layed back down and he was starting to fall asleep. He had his shirt off so I was rubbing his chest.. his arms.. and his back.. I wanted him so bad but I wasn't going to do anything till he wantedd to. So we whispered back and forth to each other for a bit... then I started kissing his chest and then I worked up to kissing his cheek really softly. I did that for sometime and he said "when you kiss me it sends chills down my spine.." and I said "what like this?" and I licked from the bottom of his neck all the way up to giving him a kiss. Then that got him in the mood lol and I was just thinkinn "im going for it.. I want to make him want me.." So I kissed him really deeply and really hard and long. Then he got more into it and rolled over and got back on top of me. Then things just went from there. It was soooo intense. I wanted him sooo bad. We've never kissed like that before, for so long and stuff. His roomate wasn't even there for the night so it was even better. I made Mike want me sooo bad. I even pulled on his hair and just pulled him closer to me the whole time. It was great. We did all that till 3:40. I got back to my place at 4. Lol. Diana was sleeping. When she woke up this morning she was all "what time did you get back last night young lady?" and I laughed and was all "4?" haha. She's funny. Despite this massive hickey on my neck, last night was so nice. I'm gonna marry this man. We talk about it sometimes. He'll always say "we're gonna be so rich and live in a nice house.. wow an engineer and a psychiatrist.. our kids are gonna be awesome. We're gonna have a bred winner.. a boy.. he'll be the next tiger woods..." and when I tell him how I plan to get my MD in psychiatry and how I'm gonna be in school for another 10 years minimum.. he always says "yeah.. you'll be living with me.." Yep. Mike's gonna be my husband and the father of my children. But don't worry.. that's all gonna be in the future. Oh I'm so happy with him. My life is complete. I don't want anyone else. I know it may sound stupid of me.. but seriously.. I can't see myself with anyone else in the future but him.

I am the princess (...with a pea)!

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You! Yes, you... the one with the sensitive bum.

You're lovable and cute but very picky. That's why we don't like you. I mean.. that's why we're so damn fond of you! The only real problem I had with you was the fact that you stole my mattress just so prevent a bruised tush. Jeez, I need to see my psychiatrist about speaking out of turn.

I'm completely down-to-earth!

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You are the most in touch with knowledge. It's the tree of life from which you tap the sap. You know what you want and you know how to reasonably get it.

Virtues: You respect people with plans. When someone has their head on their shoulders, you know that they can see straightforward and keep their eyes on the mark. When it comes to looking at the future, you take a logical approach: what's within your ability? A fortunate attribute that you have is the ability to set a goal for yourself, higher than maybe you feel possible, but still keep yourself within reasonable bounds. You take the time to appreciate those surrounding you and they do appreciate you in return. Decision-making comes naturally to you when you take the time to consider each option. People only come to talk to you when they are looking for a logical, reasonable solution.

Aspirations: You have an idea of what you can do with your life, but you push it up a notch. You need a profession that you can enjoy, so work towards it. You want to live near your friends and family while being as far away as possible. You also want to settle down while working in excitement and variation.

Quirks: You don't appreciate drama queens and they don't appreciate you. When they need help, they won't seek you out because of your ability to see through their overly dramatic predicaments. You have leeway for humor, and sometimes love to participate in it, but when it becomes irrational behavior, others can count you out. Loud noises are bothersome, except when they come from you or your friends.

Factors: Reach for the sky! Don't decide to do something because you're merely good at it, but choose something you might like to do, despite whether you're sure you can master it or not. Don't only save room for a few empathetic friends, but open up to everyone.

Future: When looking for a job, if you work in all of your talents (logic, decision-making, planning, and definitely humor), you'll find yourself happy. Come to a compromise for location; live nearby your friends and take periodic vacations or live farther away and take frequent return trips.